Change

I had the most amazing lecture today in my managing change class.  As many of the students in my class are graduating this semester, my professor took a day to lecture on self change.  Man was I inspired.  I'll post my lecuture notes in my next post, after all the projects I need to complete tonight : /  However it made my realize a lot about myself and the changes I'm going through. 

This short and sweet little post is about something I learned about ME today.  I, Brittany, am a master at hiding my feelings.  Many, many, many people will disagree, and say I am quite transparent when I'm upset.  The trick here is that most of the time if you can tell I'm upset, I want you to know.  However lately......when I've been going through some 'changes', really had some ups and downs and life altering decision making going on...NO ONE close to me knows where my head is at or what I'm feeling.  (no.....I'm not going to tell  you my favorite follower either....; ) Actually, I'm pretty sure no one has even realized there is something going on!

Maybe I'm growing up, maybe this is a phase, but I'm going through an alone time right now.  Dealing with some stuff alone and I'm not sure if I like it or not.  I LOVE that I have so many people to lean on all the time (bless all of my family) but this college graduate (almost) needs to figure out some stuff by herself without the influence of others I so heavily weigh most decisions on.  SO, these big issues (big to me at least....keep in mind how blessed my life is) are gonna be handled by MUAH!

Keep an eye out for my post on the change lecture...it's gonna be good!

Let it go

If I tried to write an official blog right now, it would be a scattered mess! BUT... Here is to my family who have pushed me through a couple tough weeks.  Here is to this week being MUCH better.  Last but not least, here is to letting go of what you cannot control and holding on to what really matters.

Ima Bee Ima Bee Ima ima ima Bee

Back to school this week! Last time I plan on saying that for a while : ) I've been a busy B over my break, getting caught up on some family time with my Aunt and little cousin in time, spring cleaning (SO fun, let me tell you), I even got caught up at work! I have to admit, I am going a little crazy about the next few months to come!

First there is the last round of finals : / and group projects, whew there goes that tight ball in my chest again.  I can't wait for school to be over, but I  have a feeling I'm going to need to start some new hobbies to keep myself busy.  Boredom never does anyone good.  I am SO looking forward to my graduation and graduation party on May 15th though! I just finished up the invites today.

Then comes SUMMER! My favorite memories are all from summer, I'm thrilled.  I have camping trips planned, lake house retreats, and I'm thinking I might splurge and go somewhere beachy with my girls, money permitting of course! OH and a wedding! I can't wait for the summer time!

Then theres October! I am going on an 8 day Carribean cruise with a girl friend of mine! (I know right?) BUT, there's this thing I need to start working on.... : / the BIKINI BODY. Hopefully I'll be there by July but October is the deadline, now if only I had the desire to get to that gym I'm paying for.

I'm working on getting these blog posts narrowed down to one subject, I just find myself great at rambling in them.  I'll have to start taking notes from the excellent bloggers I follow ; ) you know who you are!

Spring Break and Heart Ache?

I know at some point on here I mentioned that I wasn't good at this sort of thing.....and the month (or couple of months ; ) that I haven't posted prove it! I'll admit it, I'm a bad blogger.  I'll work on it.  OH the things that have happened in these months, let me tell ya, there wasn't a lot of slacking involved.  I've lived, that's for sure. 

I officially made it through the first half of my last semester! WHOO HOO! No simple task I tell ya.  Now I'm on spring break, well, kind of.  I'm working all week. Someone's gotta pay those bills : ) I did however, play hookie from work today, the weather last night totally made up my mind.  I'm such a rebel right?! The day off (doing HW) and shopping with my Momma and Aunt totally set me back in check though.  God I love that woman.  That poor mall we took on too, it should be illegal for three women in my family to be in the same vecinity at the same time!

So to the heart ache on my spring break.  Well, I met a man, yes, a man, not a boy.  Step one.....CHECK! However, without going into details about the crazy complicated and hush hush situation, it's not going to work out.  Now, as much as this hurts, I'm kinda proud that I realize this, and am 'trying' to move on.  Not going so well, but I do have a great support system behind me pushing me right through it.  Let me tell ya, this dating world........not all it's cracked up to be.  Ladies, go kiss those husbands/fiance/boyfriends.  Most of what's out there is no bueno.  I however, have nothing but good things and prayers to say for the wonderful man that can't be in my life right now.

As most of my loved ones can tell you, I've been in a bad mood about this 'man' situation the last couple of weeks. SO, what better to do than to count my blessings and the things that I am thankful for.  That should set me right back on course.  Today I am thankful for: God, Momma, Dad, Brother, our health, my friends, the roof over my head, the food on the table, my college education (almost there:), heart ache, my job, and my Aunt being in town. 

There are SO many more blessings in my life, I just need to remember to count on those in my time of need rather than focus on the negative, but it's just so darn hard.  I guess it'll come with aging.  Are we aloud to do a shout out on here.  Well, i'm going to......TO: the one person who will probably read this  blog entry first..you know who you are.... keep your head up, remember to count your blessings, and remember I'm here for you even when you don't think I am. You WILL get through this and be stronger for it. Love you!

Busy Bee

Bachelorette Party and Bridal Shower and Wedding OH MY! TodaOh the honor of being a Maid of honor! I've been having so much fun with the Soon to Be Mrs. She's doing such a great job putting all the pieces of her wedding together, even though she doesn't think so....but I am SO proud of her! I am pretty excited about my part too, but it's kinda stressful! Not that it's anything close to buying and completely remodling a house, while planning a wedding, and going to school, but hey....it's a lot for this B! I have all of the bachelorette party planned at last! The hotel, that has the restaurant in it that will let us crazy ladies have a bachelorette party and a lingerie shower all in the same place. Man did we have fun making those invites and I think they turned out pretty good! Next is the bridal shower....whew. I got the ok from my brother to do it at our house, so location.....(check). I did some browsing online and decided I wanted to use yellow (because I fell in love with this lemon centerpiece) and then the soon to be Mrs. and I went to hobby lobby and decided on some invitations and a black and white vintage theme. Black, white, and yellow it is, not to bad right?! I love this stuff, I really really do. It's totally in my ballpark. It's hard though, I don't want to leave anyone out, but with all this stuff on my mind.....I'm having a hard time!!! Thank goodness I have the big man ^ up there behind me for this one! (and all the other ones). I'll post pics of my ideas below!

Saturday was THE BEST day I've had in a while. It was totally a girls afternoon! One of the bridesmaids and I went shopping for the bachelorette party (embarassing) and then we wen't wild for animal print (theme for party)......I picked the perfect time for this animal print theme, there's so many options out there! Afterward, we met up with the Bride and Groom for lunch, then we stole the Bride away for more girls time. It was so nice to have real girl time sitting on the floor of Border's in the wedding/religious isle. The Lord was in full force that day too, he brought both of my girls a little closer to him and I was thrilled to experience it. I then went home to experience more painting and decorating....whew i was wiped out. This re-doing my brother's house is tiring. I've finished a couple of rooms, it's just hard to do a lot with what these previous model home designers did......they sucessfully made it look nice by doing things half (you know the word). sheesh.

Another long week ahead of me, it's going to go by so quick.......ok, maybe I won't post pictures...because I can't quite figure out how too! Soon though.

Make it FAST!

Whew! What an interesting first week back at school! I feel like I've had a permanent smile on my face all week long! What's wrong with me?!? I think it's that it's my last semester for this degree, and I LOVE my classes with the exception of one, AND I love my schedule! I go to night school on M and W and two classes in the middle of the day on T and TH. I can work on those half days for a bout 4 hours OR I can stay home and catch up on the little things I'd usually leave behind!

I did a little soul searching with my Dad on the way home from work the other day. We talked the whole way about what's next for me, and he really put me at ease! I had my mind set on bills bills bills, responsability, full time working, no vacation, no fun!! I was really starting to stress myself out. Funny how a little 'hunny it doesn't all happen at once' comment from the man I love the most in this world completely calms me down! Yet again, I am so blessed to have such wonderful parents.

Well, I do have to make this one fast. I am trying to blog a little bit more on Tuesdays and Thursdays since I have the quiet time at the computer, HOWEVER, the cute boy in my managing change class is just calling my name right now. ; ) Hopefully!


P.S. Yay! I have two followers now! Thanks Momma D!

Shop Till You Drop

SO, I'm not very good at this blogging thing. To be honest I forget about it, oops! I am trying however!

So, this last weekend was an absolute blast! I took Friday off of work to do last minute cleaning, errands, and what not. The kicker is my Momma took it off two. It's not too often we get to spend the whole day together, and we had a blast! I got my car detailed (it's like driving a new car now, seriously, it was that bad). I also did something huge! I ORDERED MY BOOKS AND MY GRADUATION INVITATIONS! Oh man, I am almost done with my first degree. Who knows what's next for my education, but I cannot believe it's my final semester! 4 long years of hard work are finally going to pay off, until.......well grad school that is, but I think i'll live it up a little before then!

Anyways, after my mom and I went shopping all day, we FINALLY found outfits for our family portrait session the following day, and we went to play volleyball for my brother. HAHA, here's a story. My mom and I and not reallly blessed with the talent it takes to be good at volleyball. I'm much to afraid of the ball flying at my face and duck down all the time, and she has a bad knee. However, being the wonderful mother she is, when I was forced to play because there were no other girls to play (and there has to be at least one girl) I asked my mom to go with me, and she did! We were comical, but were able to keep our humor about it. Six games and six losses later, we treated ourselves to a little Target therapy : )

Saturday, Momma and I got to hang out again and get out hair done for the family portraits my brother and I bought my parents. I love getting my hair done, I leave that place feelin like a million bucks! No joke. Then we went to the family portrait session in Washington Park. I have to say, we're a pretty cute lil family! If I can figure out how to post pictures on here, I will. Thanks KRISTOL! (oooh and thanks Momma D and Cat for the idea!)

Then Sunday came around and my winter break slowly came to an end. I cleaned all day long and ended the day with a nice dinner on the couch with my best friends and a SUPER EXPENSIVE trip to Wal-Mart. That's what a girl gets for putting grocery shopping off for three months!

Tomorrow, I start school up again. I can already feel the stress at work, but I am pushing through. Pray, pray, pray, for these next few months to go by smoothly for I have so much coming up to be thankful for!